I opened a drawer in my desk the other day and it got stuck. It was jammed. I had been throwing things in it for the past year without much thought. The jam was fate telling me “enough was enough.”
I needed to start cleaning house. No better time than the present. I pulled out a couple of books that needed to go on a shelf. And then I came across an old notebook. As I leafed through it, I found some old notes from work that I didn’t need anymore. If Jim in Accounting doesn’t know about the project launch and the cutover to the new technology, it’s too late now.

Chicken-scratch ramblings
I almost threw the notebook in the trash. In fact, I started to, but picked it back up. For some reason, I continued to leaf through it. In the back, I came across a section that I used as a journal. There were only seven or eight entries. I wrote about how my work demands were getting me down. On another day, I wrote about how my marathon training was falling off a cliff. Oh, no surprise there. I’ve run two marathons in my life and both were challenging.
Finally, I came across a journal entry from September 30, 2004. The date caught my attention right away. The note was about our youngest son. He had been born earlier in the year and we were still getting used to the challenges of being a family of five. We had taken him to his four month doctor’s check-up and received great news.

Rest assured
The doctor’s words came at a good time. We had been worried about how our son regularly curved his back when he was nursing. He seemed to be in pain. We worried about him having several different serious spinal related or digestive maladies. In the end, though, it turned out to be nothing. A false worry.
My brain is an assortment of dates and memories. I have to think hard about what I ate this morning. It’s only been a few hours, but I’m challenged by the question. However, the journal entry helped prod the neural pathways in my brain. The twenty-one year-old memory came back as fresh as a daisy.
I remembered the antiseptic smell of the exam room. I remembered the smile on the pediatrician’s face as he walked in the room. I remembered how he held out the test results declaring the good news. And most importantly, I remembered him telling us that our son would be fine.
The news felt like a 10-ton elephant had been lifted off our shoulders. It was glorious news. We could breathe again.
Living life one moment at a time
In my two decade old note to myself, I wrote: “Thank you Jesus. Yes, thank you for standing with us and helping us through life’s challenging moments.”
Fast forward to today, the journal entry still makes me feel good. It reminded me that challenges come and go and there’s nothing better than getting good news.
Hallelujah.
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I love coming upon old entries like that! I have our son’s first and second year calendars and they really bring me down memory lane. Other memories not written down have been relived in my mind so many times I think they are now part of my DNA.
“Living life one moment at a time” – God is really reaching out to me today with this message! First my “Jesus Calling” entry for today, then another blogger with the exact same message.
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Cool Nancy . . . I’m really inconsistent with my journaling. But when I see a journal piece like that one, it really does get me back into the habit. Reminds me that it’s great to get my thoughts down on paper. Love that you have your son’s first and second year calendars. Cool to go back to once in awhile. Ha, ha.
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😭This is the power of writing… it outlives the moment, and memorializes the small moments that shape our lives. I’m so grateful your worries were allayed that day, and that you still have writing as a tool to have navigate the uncertainties. 🤗
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Yes, my writing really does save me in more ways than one. Ha, ha. Thanks Erin.
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Love this. Amazing how an old notebook can bring back such powerful memories. A great reminder that worries pass but those moments of good news and gratitude stick with us. 🙏
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Yes, you hit the mark. It really did remind me everything about the appointment. I was able to feel and see it in my mind. I was back twenty years ago waiting for the doctor to come in, chatting with my wife, . . . and then both of us both being so relieved! I remember we celebrated by ordering out pizza. Like I wrote, I have no idea what I ate last night, but I can tell you how we celebrated twenty years ago. Ugh. Ha, ha.
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Wonderful news, indeed, Brian. It is the kind that gives relief and releases tears. May you have frequent good news all the rest of your days.
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Love that blessing. Yes, frequent good news. Love that idea. Ha, ha. Thank you Dr. Stein.
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I regret so many things I discarded…without becoming a hoarder, there is so much good that can come from looking at items from your past….thanks for sharing this
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Yes, well now I’m not sure what to do with the rest of the drawer. Throw it out or keep it because stuff might bring back another memory. Ha, ha. 😎😎😎😎
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This is a fantastic reminder of not only God’s power but your power as well. You made it through that challenge and documented your feelings before and after. I just love how words can transport you back to a specific moment or moments. Thank you for sharing this. I hope you kept the entries!
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I like how you phrased it. When I journal, I do have a tendency to write how I’m feeling. It does seem to help get through the moment. Help me deal with the worry. Yes, glad that it all worked out. 😎😎😎😎
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such good words and good news
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Thank you Beth. Funny the things we remember. We’ve had hundreds of doctors appointments over the year. It’s funny that I remember the doctor’s mannerisms and reaction. Other appointments I can’t tell you anything. 😎😎😎
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Amen to good news and healthy children!
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Yes, always love those results. 😎😎😎😎
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The mind is amazing in that we can pull in detailed memories from afar with the simplest of triggers. Brian, this is a wonderful remembrance. I think we often “hold onto” bad news instances, like great athletes who often say they more readily remember the title games they lost, instead of the ones they won. We need to keep those good news instances close to our hearts – and foremost in our minds – as well.
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I like your take Bruce. I have a habit of remembering life’s challenging moments — when I stuttered during a big presentation or when I wasn’t as good of father as I could have been. So when I think of a great moment I love to hold onto them. 😎😎😎
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What a beautiful memory!
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Oh thank you Elizabeth. Funny that it came back to me because of one of my journals. Ha, ha. 😎😎😎
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I toss my journals as soon as I’m done with them — except for ones I kept in high school and college. Those are entertaining! The ones I do now are a brain dump, my three pages in the morning a la “An Artist’s Way.”
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💕
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Yes, love good test results. 😎😎😎
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⭐️🤓
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😎😎😎😎
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So glad you cleaned out your desk – little moments, big memories!
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Oh the drawer is still a mess. I’m not a hoarder, but when I found the journal entry then I felt guilty throwing anything away. Uh-oh, now I’m trouble. I can’t throw anything away. Ha ha.
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The most important kind of good news, Brian! I love that you found those notes and got to relive that relief all over again. Here’s to good news!
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Good news is always welcome. Ha, ha.
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A wonderful memory, Brian, and an uplifting post. Thank you!
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I close my eyes and come up with one of those every once in awhile. Don’t know how it happens. Kind of like a blind squirrel finding the nut every once in a while. Ha, ha. I’m kidding. I’m glad you like it. 🤣🤣😎
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Nice discovery. It probably felt good to experience the joy and relief all over again, two decades later. I think I have a few handwritten journal entries somewhere, but they’re no doubt full of random teenage angst.
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The work notes were a riot mark! Old systems. Names of leaders I’ve long forgotten. Dates and deadlines I hope I made. Ha ha, all kind of funny.
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Thank goodness you saved and reread that journal.
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Yea, I never know what to do with old journals. Hate to keep them, but hate to throw them away. Too many memories. 😎😎😎
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Exactly!
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